Nikita – Season 3 recap


Ok, it’s time to get down to business and finally write this post, which I’ve been postponing for a while, for mainly two reasons: 1. I’ll have too much to say, 2. Writing this will be like officially saying goodbye to the 3rd season of Nikita, and in my own little delusional world, the series is still well alive and running. *sigh*

To be honest, the third season has not been my favorite season. I’ve watched and re-watched Season 1 and Season 2 countless times, without any fast forward or skipping parts, but surprisingly, I haven’t done so for Season 3. I’ve only skipped to the good Mikita parts. And frankly, the dynamic that Nikita and Michael had was best when they were against each other, in Season 1, and the thrill was much more tense when Alex was an undercover at Division, also in Season 1. So yes, Season 1 is my favorite, I guess. But on the other hand, it’s also true, from a creative point of view, that it would have been next to impossible to keep Alex that long in Division as a double agent, and well, Michael had to be ‘turned to the good side’ sooner or later.

Season 3 started off so well. We saw that Nikita finally had a ‘normal’ life outside of Division, practicing yoga and all (although we didn’t see much of her normal life after that), and yes, of course, Michael proposed (OMG OMG!!!), which was a very un-Nikita-ish move, but awesome nonetheless.


We also had some very sweet Mikita moments, some very sweet Salex moments, some very encouraging Birkhoff actions, and some very thrilling missions. On the other hand, we had some very dark and gloomy moments as well, amputations, deaths, betrayals, unexpected and deadly twists and turns (doh), battles between good and evil, and a lot of ‘Amanda you’re such a bitch’ deliriums.

What I liked most about this season?

1. Finding out that you can’t ‘right’ a wrong as simple as you would wish to. The characters’ struggle with the essence of Division, and then with Amanda, has been a hell of a ride, filled with ‘I don’t think they’re going the right way’ doubts. In some way, I sympathized with Percy, for having run this organization for… I don’t know… 10 years at least? And in other ways, I felt bad seeing that Division got to the best of them, like a disease slowly yet surely invading its host’s body. Ryan, Nikita, and even Michael, could not remain as ‘righteous’ as they had perhaps started when they took over the task of dismantling Division, and they had to make compromises and put their own benefits before the ‘greater good’. Perhaps the one that remained the most impartial and untouched was Sean, and well… we all know how that went for him (*tears*).

2. Discovering Nikita under a whole new light, and not a pleasant one (but that is not to say that it wasn’t a clever move from the writers), since we saw her bits of Amanda in her character, behavior and reaction, especially in her relationship with Alex.

3. Being left dumbfounded by Amanda’s obsession with Nikita and her objective to prove that Nikita is ‘not a good person’ and that she is only as much as she raised her to be. Her schemes were so manipulative and proofs of patience and cunning, it was simply amazing to see such a TV villain.

4. Action – ALWAYS a treat on the show.

And now it is time to say goodbye. I’ll probably spend the hiatus re-watching all three seasons all over again, restraining from writing posts from Season 1, Episode 1…

I don’t think I’ve been this much into a show ever since Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Man, that was ‘the‘ show for me when I was a teenager (at least I had an excuse back then, being a teenager, you’re often forgiven for your craziest crushes). Not having the means of the powerful internet back then (which, thinking back, was a blessing), I used to record the show when it aired on MBC (not the Korean one, the Arabic one), on Sundays, at 20:00 (I remember the time, since it was sometime after evening mass on Sundays and I used to get into such a fuss when mass would occasionally drag for more then 10 minutes. I know, what a devout little Catholic girl I was. Pfft), watch it over and over on VCR, memorize the lines and then write them down in my diary. That show was the only reason Sarah Michelle Gellar was my favorite actress (but not having seen any of her other works) for a long time.

I did ‘ship’ the ‘Dantana’ couple in CSI New York for a while, but the degree of that particular devotion was nothing compared to the one I developed for Buffy and Nikita.

Unfortunately for my sanity, I’ve had full access to the magical world of internet for Nikita, and I’ve succumbed to Tumblr blogs devoted to the show, YouTube videos of fan-made compilations as well as simple clips of the episodes (somehow it’s a different experience, watching clips of episodes on YouTube, of the very same episodes I have in complete in my drive), Twitter accounts of the actors and the writers, and yes, online voting (for best actor/actress, etc). I even fucking added my name to the fan video made for Dillon Casey to thank him for his work on Nikita. Gosh, the laugh I had when I saw the video, AND my name pop up with my ‘personal message’! It was both… exhilarating and depressing. Maggie Q is now my favorite actress (and once again, I haven’t seen any of her other work, and I probably won’t actively look for them), I know that it should take at least 4 seasons of 22 episodes to have the show ‘syndicated’ (whatever that means… that was enough to have my hopes for Season 4 when we weren’t still sure Nikita would come back for a season 4). I know what upfronts are for each TV channel and I know of comic cons in San Diego and New York. I’ve watched with concern the ratings of this show on TVLine (and I never cared about ratings for any show, due to my aversion to numbers) . I’ve discovered, to my relief, that my benign interest in the show was nothing compared to the obsession devotion other fans have for the show. I mean, Tumblr fan arts and gifs? Pfft, that is nothing. Making videos rooting for a fourth season? Now, yes, that’s fandom. Fan fiction? Sure, it’s all good effort, but come back after you’ve made your own opening credits for the show.

So yeah, you can imagine my sadness and depression when I learned that Nikita will be coming back for a VERY shortened fourth and final season. True, I never saw the show go more than five seasons at most, from the beginning, due to the nature of it, and it wouldn’t have made sense to drag on for 7,8, or 9 seasons, considering the story, but 6 episodes to wrap things up where they left off, that is simply not fair. Plus, there are so many ‘dumb’ shows out there that get renewed without any difficulty, and for such a sturdy script and fabulous action, with the right amount of relationship drama this one offers, Nikita is, indeed, like ‘we like to say in the Mikitaverse’ (Mikita fans), so underrated. But well, what can I do. They delivered a hell of a finale, like the previous two, and I’ll just have to forget all about them and drown my sorrow into the sleep-depriving, mind-wrecking and hopefully sometimes-rewarding life of a grad student in the States. Plus knowing that I got some of my Facebook friends to watch the show, with my constant postings, I feel like I reached for the moon and got it. True, I failed to drag my own sister into this universe, but she’s very hard to convince when it comes to TV shows… or any of my ‘crazy emotional investments’.

And with that, I leave with my two favorite fan-made videos of the show, which means a lot, considering the extensive number of such videos I have ardently and shamelessly watched on YouTube.



Nikita – Epic finale

[Spoiler Alert]

TV Show: Nikita

Episode: Season 3, Episode 22, “Till Death Do Us Part”

So this is it. It’s over. Done. Fini. The end. It hurt too much just to think about it, hence this delay.

Just give me a moment to…


And so goes my joy of the week… leaving only the tiny frail of hope that it’s coming back next June-ish for ONLY six episodes. Oh *sigh*.

I had to restrain myself from being on Twitter the whole day Saturday before I was able to watch the episode, because that’s how I got to know of all the spoilers for previous episodes: that Mikita got engaged, that Michael lost his hand, and that Sean died. I was a little bummed every time, but I managed to let it go. But for once, for this time, I didn’t want anything to spoil my Nikita finale.

I was holding my breath the entire time, watching Nikita carry out her ‘final’ mission under the orders of evil Amanda. It was a 40-minute emotional roller coast, as I was relieved to find out Michael could be cured without Nikita having to go through the mission (although, of course, a large part of me knew it wasn’t going to be that easy and simple), miserable to see that tiny hope escape (well, of course…this is ‘Nikita’ after all), heartbroken to hear Michael and Nikita say what could probably be their last ‘I love you’s (Oh god, when will these two ever be happy…), shocked to witness the president shoot herself (Amanda’s pure evil has no boundaries), excited to absorb some good ol’ Nikita solo action, a little nervous to sit useless and insignificant in front of an unconscious Michael (although he was obviously going to wake up,… still… you never know with this show), thrilled and a bit sad to finally face the destruction of Division, reassured to see all of them safe and sound as a family again, ready to go on, teenage-giggly and having an ‘awe’ moment at hearing ‘Till death do us part, right?’ coming from Michael, DEVASTATED and teary-eyed to see Nikita leaving them and Michael discovering the engagement ring left behind, and finally… stunned to see the president alive…

What a contrast from how it started. We should have known. The writers gave us the precious engagement in the very first episode for a reason: where better to start than the happiest place if one wants to take the rest of the season in a turmoil of limb amputation, death, imminent risk on life and break up?


And so once again, Nikita is alone, running away, away from the family she worked so hard to build and protect, her name uncleared, even worse, accused of the sole worst crime in the country. And once again, Michael and Birkhoff will be looking for her, with the exception that this time, she will try her best NOT to be seen or heard.

The finale has left so much potential for so many stories to develop that I’m really anxious six episodes won’t be enough to have a proper, satisfactory ending (and making me mad at CW for not extending the final season for at least 13 episodes, if not 22).

Who is ‘The Group’ (or ‘The Shop’ according to Birkhoff)? How will Nikita hunt down Amanda? What is the Group going to do with the president? Will the president escape? How will Nikita clear her name? How will Michael and the rest track down Nikita? What kind of happy-ending will they have (this is not even a question of ‘will they or won’t they’. They MUST have a happy ending, it’s a question of ‘how’)? I mean, all these questions can’t be answered in 6 episodes!

Nonetheless, even with the dark ominous cloud of ‘Only six episodes for Season 4’ hanging over my head, this was an epic finale, matching the awesomeness it has been displaying throughout this season.

Thank you and see you soon.

2012 Fall TV Show recap

So… welcome to my ‘hidden’ treasure chest of guilty pleasures for the year 2012-2013.

When people ask what I like doing, watching TV shows is definitely one of the answers. Then they ask me what shows I  watch, and there is no way for me to answer that question that will not make me look like a total obsessive freak. So I just mumble a simple and inaudible ‘Oh, this and that…’ while the list of my shows is actually going through my head, one by one, and in alphabetical order please, since I’m that neurotic and that’s how I have them organized in my humble brain (and my external hard drive).

The only fictitious pride I am left with is that I don’t usually watch shows that most people or most girls would watch, like ‘Gossip Girl’, ‘Grey’s Anatomy’ or previously ‘Desperate Housewives’. I mean, yes, I do watch ‘HIMYM’, but well, what can I do, I’m human and no human can escape Barney’s charm.

Every year I try to cut down on some shows (mainly because I can see and hear the ‘Oh geez’ sigh from my wiser younger sister in my head every time I fan girl about some show), and unfortunately (or fortunately?), this year was no exception. Most surprisingly, I managed not to venture into new shows for 2012. That’s a new for me. On the top of my head, I could have well succumbed to the temptation of ‘The Americans’, ‘1600 Penn’ (although cancelled), ‘Arrow’, ‘The New Normal’, and others, but I didn’t. Although, to be honest, I did watch one episode of ‘1600 Penn’ and ‘The New Normal’ each and decided I didn’t like it.

Well, here goes my very own personal no-it’s-not-a-waste-of-time and no-I’m-not-weird recap and thoughts on the Fall 2012 Season. Oh, spoiler alert for some.

1. 2 Broke Girls – Season 2


When I watched the first season of this show in 2011, it was almost a revelation. The witty and humorous racial and sexual jokes had no boundaries and I loved it. It’s been a steady second season, and although it has lost some of the novelty of the first season, I don’t see myself giving it up. I do admit though that it was a shame to see Andy go. Although I was not too keen on him at the beginning, because he just seemed to goofy, he grew on me with time… but then apparently that was the cue for him to go… huh.

2. CSI – Las Vegas – Season 13


The very first CSI never gets old. Proof? It’s been 13 years and I’m addicted to it just as I was the first year, and it’s been renewed for a 14th season. The cast has gone through some major changes, some sad (Grissom and Warrick), some disappointing (Willows), some annoying (the I-don’t-need-you-anymore departure and please-take-me-back come-back of Sarah), some exciting (Greg and Morgan), some boring (Langdon) and some surprisingly pleasant (D.B. Russell), but all in all, everything’s been steady. The addition of Ted Danson in 2011 was a surprise and I was a bit dubious about it, but his unique character as head CSI, more relaxed than any other, including Miami and New York’s, is a fun change. I just wish they would make up their mind about Morgan and have her start something with Greg, and NOT Hodges. They’ve been hinting at some mutual attraction between Morgan and Greg ever since Morgan joined the cast, but CSI Las Vegas not being too keen on relationships like Miami and New York (except Sarah and Grissom, and that was a bad move), I respected their neutral position. But Morgan and Hodges? No no. Way too weird. Morgan and Greg look so good together, and it’s about time my lovely geek Greg got some action besides the field and his nerdy obsession on Las Vegas history. The season 13 ended in a cliffhanger and I can’t wait for the next season!

3. CSI – New York – Season 9


Ah… I feel so bad for CSI New York. Ever since the second season, it was actually my favorite CSI, but somewhere between season 7 and 8, it began losing its charm… and finally got cancelled. After having three finales in a row where there was clearly a hint that the writers and producers weren’t sure the show would be renewed, it finally got the terrible cut. And I’m sorry to say, but I think it was time. I decided not to watch it anymore in the middle of season 9, but then I learned that Lindsy would be having a second baby, so of course I had to watch Danny’s reaction. Then, I learned that Josh Groban would be making a guest appearance, so eventually, I ended up watching the whole season (which was shortened). I personally think Mac was just too intense, man. Always so serious and … well, intense… and it was as if the whole show revolved around him for too many episodes.

I was really into the whole ‘Dantana/Dinsy’ shipping for a while, and they had a good run, so thank you CSI -NY, and farewell.

4. Downton Abbey – Season 3


Downton, Downton… why, oh why? I absolutely loved Season 1 and 2, and then was absolutely devastated with Season 3. I still haven’t watched the finale, the Christmas episode, because I still don’t have the heart to watch Matthew’s death. I know that the writers/producers couldn’t do anything else, since it was the actor Dan Stevens who decided to leave (why oh why?), but if they knew, they could have at least kept Sybil alive. I cried like a baby for that death and I just can’t go through the same emotional turmoil for Matthew. With my two couples gone like that, I don’t see the point of watching the next seasons.


5. Glee – Season 4


Honestly, this was one of the shows that would have gotten my personal ‘ax’ the beginning of this season, because, despite the tremendously talented singing of everyone, the story line was just… out of control. But good-looking Jake (who was another of my celeb guest appearance in one of my recent dreams) and pretty Marley kept me. I mean, look at this. How can you resist their adorable-ness?

But since Glee fortunately uploads all of their musical performances on YouTube, and I often fast forward anyways when I’m actually watching the episodes, I decided ‘no more Glee for next year’.

6. Go On – Season 1

Go On - Season 1

Honestly, if it weren’t for Matthew Perry (and a little bit for John Cho), I don’t think I would be sticking to this show. Yes, it’s fun, but it’s not ‘Matthew-Perry-Chandler fun’. I guess this must be frustrating for Mr. Perry, to always be known and remembered as Chandler, but what can I say… he IS Chandler. Plus, they (I) made such a big deal with the whole ‘Mondler reunion’, it was actually a bit disappointing. But out of my loyalty to Matthew Perry, I will stick to it.

UPDATE 5/31 – Oh my God… Go On has actually been cancelled. I didn’t know. Poor poor Matthew… nothing seems to last for him ever since Friends… 😦 I’m so sad.

7. Happy Endings – Season 3


The first season was fun, but somewhere in the second season, these 6 friends got out of control and every episode was a disorganized rumble of exaggerated are-you-kidding-me scenes it became a bit hard to watch. I mean, yes, it’s TV, and things are not supposed to be real, but I still feel uncomfortable when it’s too detached from reality (which is why I stopped watching ‘New Girl’ after a few episodes) and the characters are… jumping everywhere, screaming everything, inventing new words and going to great lengths to ‘make their catch-phrases’ and ‘their thing’, which are forgotten as soon as the episode ends. I know it’s unfair to shows when I do this, but I always tend to compare comedy shows to ‘Friends’, my ‘go-to reference in the world of TV’, and well, I really feel these shows could learn a thing or two from the awesome Friends. Or at least Scrubs or Frasier. Now, these are ‘good’ TV shows you can watch over and over again.

Anyways, ABC cancelled it, and USA picked it up, and I’m happy for the actors, but one less fan.

8. Homeland – Season 2


This second season has been way too intense, even for Brody and Carrie. And with their finale, I have no idea how they will pull off the third season. The first season provided such a fresh perspective (especially when one knows that the show is American) in terms of the whole issue on terrorism, but… then, it was all over and got typically American for the second season. I guess it was just a matter of time. I’m not sure if I’ll be motivated enough to watch the next season.

9. How I Met Your Mother – Season 8


This is one of the shows that makes you realize there’s an end for everything and too much is just… too much. I mean, 8 years to find out the mother, the constant ‘Ted still loves Robin’ or ‘Robin may still have feelings for Ted’ or ‘I’m Ted, I’m sentimental and romantic and no girl wants me boo-hoo’ or ‘I’m Ted and I stupidly keep believing in stupid signs and stupid destiny’ … enough is enough. The show was so good when it started, I was so excited to see Robin and Barney start a relationship, they may have been ‘the coolest couple’ on TV, and then… it was downhill from there. Just like ‘Happy Endings’, I feel like comedy shows today ‘try too hard’. The situations the characters find themselves in are exaggerated, they use an incredible number of useless props that just crowd our TV screens and everything is all over the place. Anyways, I was glad to finally see the mother in this finale, but, had it been 2-3 years earlier, I would have been like ‘OMG! The mother!’, whereas now, I’m just ‘Ok, big deal, let’s move on.’

10. Modern Family – Season 4


I’ve never been a hard-core fan of Modern Family, but it’s a fairly decent show, something I like to have as a background… and I’m keeping it… just out of habit.

11. Nikita – Season 3


Oh, Nikita Nikita, where do I start? You’re too dear to my heart to be ‘just one’ among 15 TV shows (I just realized I’ve been watching 15 TV shows… geez… no wonder my sister and mother roll their eyes at me…), so I’ll make a special post just for you.

12. Once Upon A Time – Season 2


This got way too weird and way too cheesy for my taste. I love Ginnifer Goodwin and Josh Dallas and they make a hell of a couple, both on and off screen, but… now that I know Snow and Charming are finally together and that no matter what, things will just get weirder, this seems like a huge waste of my energy (yes, energy, not time).

13. The Big Bang Theory – Season 5


Steadily funny. The one show I would actually compare to the ‘good old comedy shows’ from back then. And I mean, Howard’s (Simon Helberg) impersonations in Episode 23… was simply… fabulous.

14. The Good Wife – Season 4

The Good Wife S4 iTunes

Steady show, always the thrill and suspense in and out of the courtrooms, awesome guest stars, but truly, the love triangle is just overdone. Let the Florricks be happy and let Will find a new woman (if he really has to be with someone). The return of Kalinda’s estranged husband Nick and the lack of Cary’s involvement for the first half of the season were disappointing, but in this season more than ever, I think, we’ve seen the characters struggle with the power they could have on the one hand and remaining true to themselves on the other, which I especially enjoyed watching and appreciated. There was some insinuated out-of-office get-together between Cary and Kalinda, which was just the amount of appropriate ‘action’ for both of these characters. I hope that they keep up with it, and not have some Cary-Robyn (Robyn was, by the way, another surprisingly pleasant addition to the cast, and will remain so as long as she keeps herself away from Cary) relationship or Kalinda-someone else, which is what I recently read on TVLine *sigh*. But I can’t wait to see how the writers will proceed with the new Agos&Florrick&Associates for next season.

15. The Mentalist – Season 5


I got too bored. I don’t care who Red John is anymore. The moment between Van Pelt and Rigsby has passed (although I heard they did get back together, but I’m already past that stage, and I’ll probably find it on YouTube – thank god for YouTube – so whatever). Although Jane is charming and Cho’s faceless expressions and emotionless comments are priceless, it’s become too…bleh… can’t find another word…and can’t even bother to.

Game of Thrones – My inner nerd

[Spoiler Alert]

So, I just watched 7 episodes of Game of Thrones in less than two days.

After watching the first episode in April, I kept postponing each episode because watching 40-50 minutes of each episode of GoT is like an hour and a half long of emotional investment. But since all of my Fall 2012 TV shows have had their finale (with the exception of Modern Family, I just realized), I had no more TV show to watch. So I finally decided to brace myself and watch GoT, one at a time, so that I won’t be bored until it is time for the Summer 2013 TV shows to fill my days. Unfortunately, once I started with it, there was no way I could stop. I should have known better.

I have read the books, so I should know what is happening and should be prepared for any surprises, but, surprisingly and fortunately, it is not so. For instance, I was actually shocked at the sight of Jaime’s hand being cut off. Then, there was Theon and the nasty hunting and mind game he was the victim of, and I was utterly appalled when he was brought back to his cell. I already dread the wedding ceremony at the Freys, and have decided to be in mourning ahead.

A short recap of the 8 episodes I have watched so far.

1. While I think there is relatively less implicit sex scenes compared to the first two seasons, it seems that there is much more nudity in this season. What is up with all the naked characters? It’s as if everyone is getting naked at least once in every episode. Not that I have anything against it, but well, too much is just too much.

2. This is the same thing I felt while reading the books, but I’m aghast at the fact that I just can’t grasp Margaery and Melisandei. All the other characters are pretty transparent, they’re either bad or good, naive or cunning. Or there are those that are somewhere in the middle, known to be cruel and without a heart, but able to show their more humane side from time to time and soften your heart. Put it simply, it’s pretty easy to know which ones to like or to hate. But when it comes to Margaery and Melisandei, I’m at loss. What is their deal? I would just like to know once and for all so that I can be emotionally prepared. I don’t want to be siding with Margaery and then suddenly find out that she was the worst bitch of them all, perhaps even worse than Cersei (now, THAT would be horrible).

3. After finding out that Jeyne Stark had been taken out of the picture to be replaced by Talisa Stark, I was a bit disappointed in the HBO version, because when it comes to TV/film adaptation, I’m all for sticking with the original story. But the more I see of Talisa, the more I like her better than Jeyne. Jeyne Stark in the book is described as such a frail and naive girl, it’s hard to feel sympathy for her, although you may feel pity.

4. Sansa Stark and Theon Greyjoy are my least favorite characters in the book, but god I feel so sorry for them watching them on screen. Seriously, they have the worst fate. Poor poor Sansa and Theon.

5. I used to scoff at those ‘geeks’ and ‘nerds’ who spoke Klingon (I thought it was spelled ‘cling-on’…) or Elvish. But now I want to learn Valyrian.

6. Daenerys is AWESOME. Along with Arya, she is my favorite character, and although she will face difficulties, I do hope that she will be the one to occupy the Iron Throne at the end, because no one else deserves it more than her. Seriously, have you seen the contenders? Joffrey Baratheon? Well, we all know how he is, and hopefully, he’ll soon be out of the picture for good. Stannis Baratheon? He doesn’t have the guts. Robb Stark? Although I appreciate his loyalty and valor, unfortunately, if they do stick to the book, his days are numbered. Even if he were to live, I think he should just stick to the north. The Greyjoys? Pfft… please. Daenerys is the best candidate. Plus, who is going to defeat her with her three dragons by her side? The ending of Episode 4 was where she was at her strongest. It was truly one of the best moments on TV.

(The best part starts from 2:20)

Nikita – No happiness for the hero

[Spoiler Alert]

TV Show: Nikita

Episode: Season 3, Episode 21, “Invisible Hand”

Oh gawd, is happiness too much to ask for our finest hero? It’s like every time Nikita or Division gets one step forward, they have to take 10 leaps backwards to pay the price for their little smiles and victories. I don’t even have the energy to write a decent review, because this episode has drained me of any hope. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I don’t like what the writers are doing, they are actually doing a fantastic job keeping us on the tip toe. In fact, they’re doing a too good of a job… I want to tell them ‘It’s OK, guys, you can take a break…and let our Nikita take a break too’… but I guess they’re just too devoted to their job. *sigh*

This going back and forth has been the theme of this season, I feel. Yet, the season started in such a fine, lovely mode.

Michael gave the sweetest and most romantic, and totally unexpected proposal, and then, bam! He lost his hand.

Sean and Alex finally had a hot sex scene, and Sean was getting comfortable with staying at Division, and then, bam! Sean died.

Ryan was so confident that he could make Division finish off what it started, clean up all the mess, and give a happy ending to all the Division agents. All they had to do was get rid of or hopefully, convince the ‘Dirty 30’ to come back, and it would have been all over. Instead, nearly all of the rogue agents they tried to approach died, with just Cyrus coming back ‘to the good side’. Division became a mess, there was havoc, and then bam! Ryan was shot, by none other than Alex, and the Navy Seals nearly killed them all.

Owen became part of Division, carrying out missions with Nikita, and despite his hot temperament and awkward attitude, he was becoming a valuable asset and friend, and then, bam! He turned into nasty Sam.

And now this… god, I should have known that Michael’s hand would be coming with a price. The moment Amanda said ‘carbon fiber bone’, I was like ‘Noooooooooo’. Pretty much like the meme in the link underneath.

Oh Amanda… Percy and Ari were NOTHING compared to you. They were plain, normal villains. But you, Amanda, are setting the bar HIGH for all the villains in TV shows. Nobody will ever equal your patience, your obsession and your deviousness. You have always taken Nikita’s ‘betrayal’ dear to your heart (which I was surprised actually existed – Season 2, Episode 18), because she was your ‘most perfect creation’, a project you had given everything into, a result that turned out even better than your expectations. She was the perfect assassin, with the looks, the grace and the skills, but more than that, she was YOUR project, YOUR assassin. She was what you made her and all you were left with in the end was betrayal.

Percy’s target had never been Nikita per se, she was simply a nuisance to his plans to run Division the way he wanted to. His final goal was to keep Division the powerful invisible organization, with the necessary funds. Had Nikita given up and disappeared, he would have said ‘Good riddance’ and would have nonchalantly carried on with his work. But for Amanda, the target ‘is and always has been Nikita’. With Division gone and Gogol as well, all she has left is Nikita. And she sure knows that the best way to ruin her is to ruin those she loves, hence Michael and his hand coming into the picture.

And so Nikita is left…alone, again, just like when it all started. She is the only one who can carry this ‘last mission’, and she has to do it alone.


I know already that the writers have planned and shot a cliffhanger finale, teasing the fandom weeks before, with the title ‘Till Death Do Us Part’; and this picture and this preview for the finale bring no comfort whatsoever as to the fate of my favorite couple. I can only hope that they don’t kill off Michael and that when the series end next season, Nikita and Michael, along with Alex, Birkhoff, Ryan, Sonya, and yes, even Owen/Sam, will finally have a taste at a long-lasting happiness.

Til Death Do Us Part

Til Death Do Us Part

Glee – Rachel/Lea Michele

I’m officially giving up Glee, trying to cut back on my ‘what I consider perfectly normal but what others may see as obsessive and deranged‘ TV show frenzy. I find comfort though in the fact that Fox uploads all the singing performances on Youtube, so at least I have that. Anyways, the finale of Glee was aired this week and among the different performances, I just had to dedicate a post to Lea Michele, aka Rachel Berry.

Lea Michele has always been a great -if not the greatest- singer in Glee (and I guess everywhere else). Although she has the ability to make every song an amazing performance that makes you forget about the original singer, I don’t think anything equals her renditions of Celine Dion’s songs. Her voice and presence are so powerful enough to bring tears to your eyes and thrills.

The classic Celine Dion “It’s all coming back to me now” in Season 3 was like a ‘revelation’, and “To love you more” for this season only further reaffirmed my infatuation.


Nikita – Parallels

[Spoiler Alert]

TV Show: Nikita

Episode: Season 3, Episode 19, “Self Destruct”

Two things I just have to say right away.

1. How SAD was the blood on the floor, at the exact spot Sean died (although it was, technically… internal bleeding…hmm…), and Alex’ flashback on their last kiss? I still miss Sean terribly… and I still think it was a terrible move from the writers to have him off the show when he had so many fans and brought in the very much needed goofiness and humor from time to time, in a place as tense as Division.

2. ‘Nikita’ does THE BEST, MOST AMAZING flashback scenes, especially when it involves Michael and Nikita. Season 1 had, of course, the best ones, but the one on this episode was pretty awesome too.

That being said, this episode was filled with parallels I was ardently scribbling and taking notes while watching. One of the many reasons I love this show and truly admire the writers for their talent, effort and devotion: watching each episode is like watching a number of seemingly independent and separate dots as they magically connect themselves. As we see the present unfold as a fruit and direct consequence of the past and one character as a reflection (or projection, Amanda would say) of another, we also see the boundaries between male and female character, and between good guys and bad guys fade away. Each new episode is like, to the risk of sounding cliche, finding a piece of the puzzle you didn’t even know existed. And as you place it in the perfect little corner of the puzzle, you see it not only fits with its neighboring pieces, but that it is just as connected and dependent to all the other pieces and the big picture as well.

1. The episode starts with Alex going into this shady part of town, with hookers, pimps, drug dealers and what-nots. It’s a glimpse to the world she would be right now, had it not been for Nikita, and, in a sense, Division as well, the very two targets she was fighting so hard against like insane for the past couple of episodes, leading to a very heavy and heart-breaking sacrifice. True, it is Division that ruined her life in the first place, but we also have to admit, Division is also the one that gave her a second life, and like she said to Sean, ‘this new one could be something better’, and it was!…until Amanda worked her mojo on her and she lost her self.

2. The episode, properly titled ‘Self Destruct’, takes us into Alex’s own journey of self destruct after her loss. Flashback time, and we see Nikita, 6 years ago, when she lost Daniel and went down the very same path and signed on a ‘suicide mission’, which Michael tried to get her off from. The feeling of guilt weighing down on her, feeling responsible, feeling she should have been the one to have died, it’s all a deja-vu for Nikita. And of course, she knows exactly what her young protegee is going through. Although she has experienced and seen with her own eyes that indeed, ‘not everyone can be saved’, Alex is still savagely and blindly determined to save everyone, at the risk of her own life.

3. And now, the BIG flashback into Michael and Nikita. Did anyone just melt when he said “You have people who care about you. You do have something to live for”? No? Just me? It was a big OMG moment, considering, well, you know, that is EXACTLY what Nikita said to Michael in Season 1, Episode 9, “One Way”, when Michael was the one going into a suicide mission to kill Kasim. This is precisely why I love the flashbacks in ‘Nikita’ and why I admire and adore the writers for their obvious attention to details when it comes to character interaction. A lot of the flashbacks in Season 1 dealt with characters saying each other’s exact line, with a few years of difference. Nikita especially would tell Alex many of the things that Michael himself, and Amanda had told her. (I just had to watch that scene one more time after writing this)

3. Isn’t it a bit spooky that Nikita often goes back to her experience with Amanda to find answers and words of comfort, more often than we would want to? She may say Amanda is a bitch, and yes, she is, but she can’t deny that she also was… her ‘mentor’ (for the lack of a better word) at some point in those years at Division. Despite her initial animosity, Nikita eventually learned to turn to Amanda in her moments of confusion and sure enough, the ‘mother figure’ always knew how to give a hell of a pep talk. The ‘trust’ Amanda put in Nikita because she was, in her heart and in her instinct, a ‘survivor’, is the exact advice and words of comfort Nikita gives to Alex.

4. The title of this episode doesn’t only reflect Alex’s journey but also the journey and ‘risk’ Division is at. Ryan plans to blow the place up so that they can all vanish in the wind and he will be the one to take responsibility. Throughout the whole Season 3, we’ve seen the group struggle with keeping Division running. Despite their initial objective of getting the ‘Dirty 30’ and only them, before letting the place go, they’ve had to face difficulty after difficulty, and risk after risk, during which they were forced to make unsatisfactory and ominous compromises. And throughout their tough journey, the deeper they were getting themselves into this mess they decided to give a try to, the more I’ve been convinced that Division is an entity with a life of its own. I bet Percy is seeing all this and rejoicing himself from his grave, with that evil look telling them ‘I’m Division’ and that if not him, then no one else can run it. And he is right. We’ve seen Division take over the better of Nikita, Michael and Ryan. It is because Division was also self destructing that it led its members to walk the same path. Once again, in ‘Nikita’, we just can’t draw a clear distinctive line between what is good and what is bad, because it’s never so in reality either. Even after this wreckage, Michael and Nikita are still determined to make it work until the end. You can’t just blame everything on Division and destroy it and expect to live a good happy life after it. After all, the previous episode was titled “Broken Home”, meaning that with all its flaws and twists, Division is still the best ‘home’ they’ve known so far.


5. And last, but not least, isn’t Ryan Fletcher (Noah Bean) handsome in this picture? 


Honestly, Ryan is my least favorite character in the show (not that I don’t like him, per se, but the others are so amazing I just can’t put him high on my list) and I think, one of the weakest ones too, in terms of story, power or presence. But I have to admit, he looks quite dashing in this picture 🙂 And I didn’t realize how much I was actually missing him while he was in comma until the moment he turned and said ‘You missed me?’ (obviously not to me, but to Nikita). I found myself crying ‘Yes, yes, I did miss you!’

PS: Did anyone notice the dorky glasses Birkhoff wore in the flashback? Like he used to in the first season? We also had an appearance by one of the agents who allowed Percy to come back in Season 2 during Amanda’s absence and who got killed in all the mess. Gosh, the attention to detail they have at ‘Nikita’ is simply… admirable.